Thank you everyone...I still feel real crappy, but I'm not the crying mess I was this morning. That is so important to me cause I don't want my daughter to see me crying all day. She'll be getting home soon and we'll be doing our yearly tradition of making him a birthday cake to sing to him tonight, and maybe then we'll drive up to the cemetary and I'll leave him a card I wrote out for him. Hopefully this year the things we put down for him on his grave won't be stolen this year.