Dear Aby,
My words were left unspoken, I lost you too fast. When i look back to my high school years when i met you, it hurts. That one class where we first met, I can remember it like it was yesterday. We then became the best of friends, and then we fell in love without even realizing it. You would call me everyday just to make sure that i was okay. Till that one day you just stoped calling....That was the day when i stopped being happy. But i was happy once, you were my everything: the blood that ran through my veins, the sun that shined on me when i was cold. When i would go to see you my heart would pound so hard i could hear it. When we would stare into eachothers eyes, you could see the fire that would burn inside.
I would get lost in a world of happiness and joy, a world that had no pain or tears. Sometimes i still reminisce of the moments when you would hold me tight, and caress my face. Your touch was always so gentle and sweet. I was happy because we belonged to eachother, For the first time i knew what love really was. With you i wasn't afraid of falling in love. I was your queen you told me, your shodi', your everything. When you were near there was nothing to fear life actually ment something because you made me realize things that others don't quite get or see yet.
I can't go to your grave site too much, so i have to apologize. I don't go because it still hurts me so much even after the fact that it has been 5 yrs, since you have passed away. It hurts me inside to know that your gone to a place where you are not within my reach, it's just to heart breaking. Seeing your picture tattooed on your grave site is unbelievably painful. I just can't bear the fact that your not hear with me anymore. you were the first person that i ever fell in love with. To see that hard piece of stone with your name and picture on it is so traumatizing to me. I can't explain all the emotions that run through me.
All i can do is cry and sit in my own denial, asking god why he had to call you home so early. I needed you, I still do need you. My everything my angel your gone. You were the only thing that i ever loved with all my heart. I loved you with all my heart could possibly give. When you passed away, a great big part of me died with you. You touched my heart like no other ever will, still even when i hurt it's you i'm calling to. It's you whom i always poured my heart to It's you who was the only one who knew how much pain lie deep within me. It was only you who made it go away. You were the only one that showed me that i was important, that i mattered. I wish that you could still be here to hold me, to caress my face as you once did. To let me know that i was safe in your arms and that everything is going to be okay.
You gave me all that you had, your love, friendship, and honesty and that was priceless. What else could i have asked for, I had it all with you, like 2Pac said it's unconditional love. At these breathing moments of my life, you will always be a horizon that I will never reach. You are a treasure in my heart, your memory will always live on within me. No matter how many years pass by me, it's you who first had my heart. It's you who I first fell in love with, you had me at hello. In my heart you will always be ABY !! I hope that you will be waiting for me, with open arms. You will always be my angel no matter what. God sent you to me for a reason, and I know we'll be with each other some day that God allows it. When this day comes,... I'll never let you go..
To my one and only...
"GOTTI"
Loving you always....
Yo' ~~**Shodi'~~**
Until then... R.I.P
My words were left unspoken, I lost you too fast. When i look back to my high school years when i met you, it hurts. That one class where we first met, I can remember it like it was yesterday. We then became the best of friends, and then we fell in love without even realizing it. You would call me everyday just to make sure that i was okay. Till that one day you just stoped calling....That was the day when i stopped being happy. But i was happy once, you were my everything: the blood that ran through my veins, the sun that shined on me when i was cold. When i would go to see you my heart would pound so hard i could hear it. When we would stare into eachothers eyes, you could see the fire that would burn inside.
I would get lost in a world of happiness and joy, a world that had no pain or tears. Sometimes i still reminisce of the moments when you would hold me tight, and caress my face. Your touch was always so gentle and sweet. I was happy because we belonged to eachother, For the first time i knew what love really was. With you i wasn't afraid of falling in love. I was your queen you told me, your shodi', your everything. When you were near there was nothing to fear life actually ment something because you made me realize things that others don't quite get or see yet.
I can't go to your grave site too much, so i have to apologize. I don't go because it still hurts me so much even after the fact that it has been 5 yrs, since you have passed away. It hurts me inside to know that your gone to a place where you are not within my reach, it's just to heart breaking. Seeing your picture tattooed on your grave site is unbelievably painful. I just can't bear the fact that your not hear with me anymore. you were the first person that i ever fell in love with. To see that hard piece of stone with your name and picture on it is so traumatizing to me. I can't explain all the emotions that run through me.
All i can do is cry and sit in my own denial, asking god why he had to call you home so early. I needed you, I still do need you. My everything my angel your gone. You were the only thing that i ever loved with all my heart. I loved you with all my heart could possibly give. When you passed away, a great big part of me died with you. You touched my heart like no other ever will, still even when i hurt it's you i'm calling to. It's you whom i always poured my heart to It's you who was the only one who knew how much pain lie deep within me. It was only you who made it go away. You were the only one that showed me that i was important, that i mattered. I wish that you could still be here to hold me, to caress my face as you once did. To let me know that i was safe in your arms and that everything is going to be okay.
You gave me all that you had, your love, friendship, and honesty and that was priceless. What else could i have asked for, I had it all with you, like 2Pac said it's unconditional love. At these breathing moments of my life, you will always be a horizon that I will never reach. You are a treasure in my heart, your memory will always live on within me. No matter how many years pass by me, it's you who first had my heart. It's you who I first fell in love with, you had me at hello. In my heart you will always be ABY !! I hope that you will be waiting for me, with open arms. You will always be my angel no matter what. God sent you to me for a reason, and I know we'll be with each other some day that God allows it. When this day comes,... I'll never let you go..
To my one and only...
"GOTTI"
Loving you always....
Yo' ~~**Shodi'~~**
Until then... R.I.P