this i wrote last night ..thoughts about my my dad .it's not the best i was sleepy.

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how strong is the word love?
how strong the wrod love is,
how much pain and sorrow one can hold inside
fromhurt and frombeing decieved as a child,and a teen,addelessons
how my love can remain complete.
i love you so,
i loved you cold,
i love you bold,
i love you so,no matter what they say.you are my soul.

so sad to see your leaving me .i'm scared to see the way you be.
so weak,fragile,just a glance and i feel dismantled,
my life has chagned dramitcally.
my daddy's dying slowly right in front of me.

what do i do what do i say?
how can i get close to him,
before his last days,
i'm so afraid to let him in,my heart still aches so deeply within,
i'm so afraid to let him see,
this deep,strong,hard pain,i carry inside of me..
so afraid to let him see these tears i've been crying achingly.
please help me god to find the courage,
to love my dad and make sure he really knows it,
the only parent i've ever known and loved is leaving me,when i just learned how to except love.i just found home..
i had just got home.now i feel incomplete all alone. even though i have my own family with me.
it's not the same without my daddy.i know i speak as if he's gone.but i now one day soon he will be gone.
i love you dad ,i pray for a miracle,
hurts so much,i hide from it,but doing that almost cost me my realtionship...
not coming home drinking all night long,hanging out till 5,
not ever wanting to come home,to avoid being seen.what ever lil is left inside of me.all i have are beautiful memories,
your still here ,alive heart still beating and your fighting to survive.and i thrive.i'm thinking blank.i can't see you like that laying there in the hospital bed.it breaks my heart.

now your out of the hospital,just got home already you've fallen and broke your rist..bumped your head.oh so so sick.
all i can do is prey god find you a kidney. all i can do is hope that one day all them dyalisis pokes stop. all i can do is hope we can both one day go dancing again.
and you can go flirt with the beautiful ladies and make me laugh and grin.
send him an angel to help him soar through .i rather him not suffer no more and make it through. i love you dad just thought you'd know.in this: once stone cold heart of mine.i still learned to love d you so.
there was one lsseon in this lil story poem. is that no matter what you have been through in life never,ever hate someone or hold that grudge learn to love that person.we all have are hard times and reasons why we grew up a certain way.some people will never understand or be able to except ,or break through and reacieve that stronger love god has sent.i mended. but i wondered why us. i guess that is what life is all about.the mystery.
 
I really dont know if I can keep reading what you are writing. It is so touching.. it really tugs at my tears.. Its beautiful, so expressive, so full of emotion and passion.. Wonderful Musiclady.. wonderful... It allows me to share in this experience and to think, myself, about my own father... Thank you... Thanks for taking the time to share
 
thank you very much. it's true sometime we really don't look at things from that aspect.but god is prepared to take back his angel soon to mend his suffereing and heal all wounds.
 
Medy,
apprieciate the time you have left with him. Make his last days the best ever. No matter what he's done in the past you can't get him back once he's gone.
I know what i'm saying first hand. I just lost my mother. and I didn't even get to say good bye. Two days before mothers day and I didn't even get to say good bye.
 
yeah, i trust and beleve that .i do need to .i do need to .i just get so emotional.but i'm gonna . thanks for your advie and i'm sorry about your lost .i know how it must feel.i did not get to say good bye to my uncle .or my grandma .i'm so saddend by your lost and your familys .too lost in one year. i'm just trying to prepare my self cuz that is all my family keeps telling me. thanks lala god bless yall.
 
Wow....music! I must say I really love your style of writing as well.....You have touched my heart..you make me think of my mother that way because she is sick but so young and i am afraid to lose her...Thank you for such beautiful words...I love it
 
shakeemup22 said:
Wow....music! I must say I really love your style of writing as well.....You have touched my heart..you make me think of my mother that way because she is sick but so young and i am afraid to lose her...Thank you for such beautiful words...I love it
i just wanted to thank all of you for taking to the time to actually read that long lil lifestory-ish poem of mine .thank yall very very much.xoxoxoxoxox
 
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