I love you with all of my heart and I wish till this day that I could have gotten to meet you. I have so much hurt inside of me that never leaves my mind. Life is very unexpected and I have not been the same since that cold summer June evening. I will never foget the day I went to my prenatal appoinment and I saw your little heart beating. I was so excited and scared at the same time. I cry every night and there is not a moment that goes by without me thinking about you. As precious as life is, taking it away is as easy as 123. I know that this situation has made me look at life in a different light. I will let everyone whom I love and care about know it becuase I know now how easy it is for your loved ones to be taken away. People tell me to forget about it, that I am not moving on, but I can't, I wake up with you on my mind and go to sleep with you on my mind and I am really truly sorry for everything that ocurred, maybe it was my fault but I could not help the stress I was going through at the time. Everything happened so fast that I was not sure whether I was coming or going. I do love you with all my heart and I want you to guide me as I know my mother does. I can't wait to meet you one day baby. Love you always. Mommy
Thank you Baby, I hope I do get closure. So far I can't stop thinking about it, especially now that my sister just gave birth to my nephew Jaydon. He is so cute, I keep thinking to myself maybe if I did not stress so much during the beginning I could have had my baby. Who cares if I would have been alone, I feel such an emptiness inside. It is hard to describe, But everything happens for a reason right.
Very true indeed, if you were to see me no one would ever know that I walk around with this hurt inside. It is so deep that sometimes I don't even understand. The other day I was listening to R kelly's I wish, and I almost died becuase I wish so many things could be different right now. But what does not break you makes you stronger. I like expressing myself it really does help to let out what you feel.
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It was beautiful ma, I feel the pain of losing a baby, it is not easy, but I see it in the sense that things happen for a reason hun. Feel better soon.
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very beautiful honey
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RENEE
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OMG that was deep, the most beautiful thing..You know what ma, things happen for a reason and maybe it was not your little one's time just yet, i'm sure you willl be blessed one day with an angel!