Company B
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Well, as many of you know, my family has been struggling with the health of my cousin, who was given 5% chance to live. Miraculously, after almost 2 months in the ICU, she regained conciousness, & was well on her way to recovery. Things were looking great, & was even able to start talking a bit, & doing better. Just this past evening, my mom calls me hysterical, that she has passed away.
I needed a moment to calm down, I still am confused, I don't understand what went wrong. I can't beleive this. She just turned 27, has 2 beautiful kids (3 & 10), & not only my cousin by blood, but my friend, my sister, & one of my biggest supporters of me & my crazy ways. Working on a Vampire project, she was supposed to be my lead Vampire. When I last saw her, she looked so asured that she was gonna be fine, & couldn't wait to go home, be with the family, & talk about the project. She never even made it home.
I still see her eyes, telling me she was gonna be fine. & Now, I just feel mad cheated, & can't explain how I truly feel. It's like a mixed up puzzle that wasn't supposed to be put this way.
I understand that God has a plan for all of us, but if she was doing good, why now??? Ijust don't f*cking get it!!?? It's not the first time I lose someone, & I know with time, greiving periods will ease, but I def know you NEVER forget.
This past week my mom & I put together some home DVD's with footage of last summer, & this past New Year's, & she is on there with my brother all buzzed, dancing, & making funny "commercials" for Bacardi, lol. (They so crazy). We sent out the DVD's yesterday, & will arrive to the family on Wed. Yet, i'm sure now, they ain't exactly gonna want to watch them. But we didn't know this was gonna happen. A friend was gonna go see her this past weekend, but held it off till next wek cuz of work, & now she is beating herself up, because she never got the chance to see her again. she is going crazy.
& I know some see it as superstition, but in my family, if u dream about your teeth falling out, it signifies death. (It NEVER fails). Whenever we have such a dream, everyone in the family knows by the end of the day, I always call my mom first. I had one this past Saturday, & my mom was like: "Ouii! No me' digas!" But since she was doing well, we never thought anything of it. & All of a sudden, the worst becomes true. This is crazy.
Tommorrow it's time to make plans to go to Tampa, & reconvine with the family. It's something my family did not need right now, but it's the way it is.
She is in a better place now. Wish us the best, & thank u all for your blessings & prayers u have given us in the past. It is appreciated.
God bless,
- CB -
I needed a moment to calm down, I still am confused, I don't understand what went wrong. I can't beleive this. She just turned 27, has 2 beautiful kids (3 & 10), & not only my cousin by blood, but my friend, my sister, & one of my biggest supporters of me & my crazy ways. Working on a Vampire project, she was supposed to be my lead Vampire. When I last saw her, she looked so asured that she was gonna be fine, & couldn't wait to go home, be with the family, & talk about the project. She never even made it home.
I still see her eyes, telling me she was gonna be fine. & Now, I just feel mad cheated, & can't explain how I truly feel. It's like a mixed up puzzle that wasn't supposed to be put this way.
I understand that God has a plan for all of us, but if she was doing good, why now??? Ijust don't f*cking get it!!?? It's not the first time I lose someone, & I know with time, greiving periods will ease, but I def know you NEVER forget.
This past week my mom & I put together some home DVD's with footage of last summer, & this past New Year's, & she is on there with my brother all buzzed, dancing, & making funny "commercials" for Bacardi, lol. (They so crazy). We sent out the DVD's yesterday, & will arrive to the family on Wed. Yet, i'm sure now, they ain't exactly gonna want to watch them. But we didn't know this was gonna happen. A friend was gonna go see her this past weekend, but held it off till next wek cuz of work, & now she is beating herself up, because she never got the chance to see her again. she is going crazy.
& I know some see it as superstition, but in my family, if u dream about your teeth falling out, it signifies death. (It NEVER fails). Whenever we have such a dream, everyone in the family knows by the end of the day, I always call my mom first. I had one this past Saturday, & my mom was like: "Ouii! No me' digas!" But since she was doing well, we never thought anything of it. & All of a sudden, the worst becomes true. This is crazy.
Tommorrow it's time to make plans to go to Tampa, & reconvine with the family. It's something my family did not need right now, but it's the way it is.
She is in a better place now. Wish us the best, & thank u all for your blessings & prayers u have given us in the past. It is appreciated.
God bless,
- CB -
