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Moving away from NY was one of the hardest decisions I had ever had to make. Moving further away from the man I love. leaving behind family and friends, or even friends who I consider family. My heart shattered into millions of pieces because i was leaving my safe haven, but with it I took the false understanding that I had the support of people, that my choice of wanting something new for me and my children was something to be commended not whispered about behind my back, as if I (by choice) set out to change eveveryone elses life.

I had friends who I met at the beginning of my career, who i develop a incredibly strong bond with, we even had our children around the same time, and tried to do things together with our kids, but since I lived in Brooklyn, and they in the bronx, things started to change little by little, we didn't see each other much, until finally we didn't see each other at all. I got tired of always being the one to drive into the bronx to seek them out, they came to Brooklyn, four times, in all the years I knew them. I didn't think ill of them, people have thier lives you know? I still love them.

I for one go into melancholy mode when I sit and reflect on my life especially with the coming year, I wish that maybe I could have stayed in NY longer(but that was out of my hands) I wish that my move hadn't disrupted peoples lilves, I wish that I did have more time to devote to my family and friends, I wish I could continue to make everyone laugh and smile even though inside I am not smiling, but there comes a time when you need to smile too, and when you turn around the smiles you once gave are not there for you.

To the girls, I miss you all very much.

Where are the clowns, bring in the clowns, I need to smile... :sosad
 
Damn Naya I feel ya girl.
You know that your move, although hurtful to you and your loved ones..was just that- a move.
I understand how you feel my leaving to Fl was sort of the same, leaving family behind is hard. But you had to do what you thought was best.
Unfortunatly ( and I've been saying this alot lately) It's Human Nature to be phoney at times. I have family I don't even bother to go see- I'm in my own lil world, and to be honest CF is a part of it-sometimes family can't fit into it-
but it's my lil world...

Out with the Old and In with the New...
This is your chance to start all over...

on that note:


There's a bear and a rabbit in the woods....................
 
Liz_Torres said:
Damn Naya I feel ya girl.
You know that your move, although hurtful to you and your loved ones..was just that- a move.
I understand how you feel my leaving to Fl was sort of the same, leaving family behind is hard. But you had to do what you thought was best.
Unfortunatly ( and I've been saying this alot lately) It's Human Nature to be phoney at times. I have family I don't even bother to go see- I'm in my own lil world, and to be honest CF is a part of it-sometimes family can't fit into it-
but it's my lil world...

Out with the Old and In with the New...
This is your chance to start all over...

on that note:


There's a bear and a rabbit in the woods....................
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Thanks Liz..lol bear and a rabbit in the woods..LOLOL, thanks alot nena.
 
jazzy4u said:
AW nena, We all still love you even though I dont know you. Put your arms around you and that is a hug from me to you.
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Thanks Jazzy..lol we'll meet one day, I always meet the Cf peeps one way or another..lol thanks for the hug 😉
 
Naya!!!!! I'm sorry you're feeling down right now but you did what you had to do for you & the boys. Sometimes that's not always what we want to do but its what's best. As for those that wanna whisper behind your back...tell them to walk a mile in your shoes and then run their mouth! :mad I hate people like that!
 
Krystal said:
Naya!!!!! I'm sorry you're feeling down right now but you did what you had to do for you & the boys. Sometimes that's not always what we want to do but its what's best. As for those that wanna whisper behind your back...tell them to walk a mile in your shoes and then run their mouth! :mad I hate people like that!
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Thanks Krystal, I can tell you this for sure, they wouldn't last 5 seconds in my shoes, in my life, but shit happens right?
 
I hear you mama! They wanna talk ish but let them try and they'll fail.

LOL @ shit happens but you're right...best we can do is roll with it or be rolled over! 😉
 
Krystal said:
LOL @ shit happens but you're right...best we can do is roll with it or be rolled over! 😉
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I like that saying..


and my new motto, :"out with the old and keep them out!!"
 
Naya you have to commend yourself and be proud of yourself for msaking such a huge move on your own without the support of many. Your job as amohter is to be just that a mother and you did and have done what is best for your children dont reflect on the what ifs, what is done is done take each step from there. Look to yourself and see you are doing it with struggle you are doing it for you and your children, you havent left anything behind because family and real friends go with you where ever you go because you keep them safe in your heart so there is nothing left behind, reflect on your memories with each individual and what they have added to your life the meaning each one has given to you and in no way let yourself feel as if you have lost any of that by moving. Although ther may be miles between you and those you love remember when you have them in your heart theyare always with you mama always. it has been a tough year for a lot of us look to the New YEar for new blessings new beginnings you never know what surprises will bless your life in the coming year 🙂 Luv ya mama 🙂
 
ok Angie you have managed to make the tears flow. thanks for the words. I guess it was a moment of weakness or too melancholy with the New Year approaching. Luv ya too flaca. 🙂
 
Mama don't you ever let someone condemn you for doing what you think is right for you and your children. although I miss you terribly, i think you did the right thing. I for one is just waiting for the right moment to the same. What you did showed that you have strength and you are willing to do what it takes to make sure that what matter most in this world to you are okay.

Now as for the clown here you go
:silly :silly :silly

Diane
 
La Mas Grande said:
Mama don't you ever let someone condemn you for doing what you think is right for you and your children. although I miss you terribly, i think you did the right thing. I for one is just waiting for the right moment to the same. What you did showed that you have strength and you are willing to do what it takes to make sure that what matter most in this world to you are okay.

Now as for the clown here you go
:silly :silly :silly

Diane
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LMAO@the clowns.. thanks LMG, you said the same thing NYPRCAN is always telling me, "you made the right choice for the kids, can't nobody tell you nothing"
 
CoOl_AL_FrM_qNs said:
did someone say clowns? :silly lol well naya i dont know if my presences ever brings a smile to u but um next time i see u im gonna try my best to atleast crack u up alittle :biggrin
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aww thanks Al!..lol😉
 
🙁 awwwwww..NYACITA..u know we miss u so much,its not funny.. :realsad and even though u are far away..there isnt a day that goes by that I dont hear one of your songs,to give me strength in the difficult time that mom and my family are going thru.. :sosad THANKS TO U,KRYSTAL,NINA,DIANE,ANGIE,VICKI,JOEDOC,MELISSA,FOR ALWAYS CHECKING UP ON ME AND VISA VERSA..BESITOS TO U AND YOUR FAMILY AND MAY THE NEW YEAR BRING US HEALTH,UNITY, AND CONYO SOME LOOT..LOL.. :wave MUAH..FOSSIE
 
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