mzJackie
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i couldn't see myself until i was forced to open my eyes...
turns out my life was based on nothing but lies...
and all the tears from those cries happened to be mine...
I hurt everyone I come close to,unless they get away....
before i have a chance to addict them and make them stay...
all this pain i have inside that i take out on pure innocence,isnt fair n i see that now,as if i've found my sixth sense...
my sense to finally see the effects of my actions after they occur...
so each time i mess up n wall out i have a chance to learn...
right now when i know im at a dead end and cant turn back...
without going through what i made so many people who now have broken hearts interact...
all i can do is sit in my lonely corner making more tears fall...
and look at myself with disgust while i scream towards the wall...
i dunno where i lost my sanity...my power to keep control..maybe it was from all the betrayal...all the love ones i've lost...or maybe its completely my fault...because i wanted to be the boss...
I would always let people in n shut them out when i felt they werent needed...but when it came down to the moments i really needed them most,my words made me sound consceded,and that i needed no one...so then i was alone...n couldn't move like i was stone...i wish i was pencil so i had the power to erase...erase all these awful moments...and terrible mistakes...
turns out my life was based on nothing but lies...
and all the tears from those cries happened to be mine...
I hurt everyone I come close to,unless they get away....
before i have a chance to addict them and make them stay...
all this pain i have inside that i take out on pure innocence,isnt fair n i see that now,as if i've found my sixth sense...
my sense to finally see the effects of my actions after they occur...
so each time i mess up n wall out i have a chance to learn...
right now when i know im at a dead end and cant turn back...
without going through what i made so many people who now have broken hearts interact...
all i can do is sit in my lonely corner making more tears fall...
and look at myself with disgust while i scream towards the wall...
i dunno where i lost my sanity...my power to keep control..maybe it was from all the betrayal...all the love ones i've lost...or maybe its completely my fault...because i wanted to be the boss...
I would always let people in n shut them out when i felt they werent needed...but when it came down to the moments i really needed them most,my words made me sound consceded,and that i needed no one...so then i was alone...n couldn't move like i was stone...i wish i was pencil so i had the power to erase...erase all these awful moments...and terrible mistakes...