La Mas Grande
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A lost soul looking for comfort but too afraid to venture to far from home. Once a risk taker now a homemaker with too much to lose. Wanting more but unable to risk it all, for the price of failure will be too much to bear. Wanting to cry to the heavens for a reason why but her pride is too strong to allow a tear to fall. She has built a prison within and can’t find an escape instead she resigns herself to her fate.
There’s a knock on the door but she won’t let them in. She searching for her inner strength but soon realizes that is almost gone. There is that knock again oh please leave me alone, can’t you see I don’t want you to come in. I went looking for you a long time ago and I couldn’t find you. It seemed to me that you didn’t want me to find you so I stop looking. I closed my eyes and told my self to forget you but for some reason every where I turned all I could do was think of you. Now that my heart is close and soul is dead why do you come knocking on my door, looking for me? Don’t you know that it’s too late, that the love is all gone and now hate is all I know. Leave me alone and let me be, because a life with out you is just fine with me. I will learn how to survive and live a life that’s fulfilling to me. You left me when I needed you, didn’t you see me cry, didn’t you see me beg. I feel to my knees and beg you to lessen my pain, to bring sunshine back into my life instead you walked away. No I don’t want to answer that knock on the door. I prefer to sleep.
A dream so vivid, so real but how can that be. I was walking down a path to a lake that seemed so familiar yet I know I have never been there. I was walking along side a beautiful man; everything about him was so perfect. Beautiful smooth tan skin, white glistening perfect teeth and hair long and full. He walks beside me and just smile without saying a word. As I was walking along side this beautiful being it occur to me that I didn’t know who he was but before the words came out my mouth he turn as said “of course you know me Diane”. I’m the one who knocks yet you won’t answer the door. He then told me to come and finish my walk with him. He had a lot to tell me. Immediately I was upset but he put his hand on my shoulder and immediately a peace came over me. He said “child I never left you, I was always here” you just chose to look for me elsewhere. I never left I was right here wiping your tear, helping you up from you floor and opening the window to let the sun in. The strength that you possess is the love I gave you, the courage you have is the faith in your heart and the pride is me beside you smiling at you accomplishments. You so very special as so is all my children but lately you have seen lost. I’m here to break you out of that prison and set you free to follow this path we’re walking on. Don’t ever be afraid to open that door because then you will never know what is on the other side. Don’t ever fear being alone because my child you will never be. Follow this path and at the end of it your fate will be waiting.
When I awoke in the morning the first thing I notice was the sun was shining and my heart wasn’t heavy anymore. With a smile on my face and a soul now intact, I face the world with an old time friend.
There’s a knock on the door but she won’t let them in. She searching for her inner strength but soon realizes that is almost gone. There is that knock again oh please leave me alone, can’t you see I don’t want you to come in. I went looking for you a long time ago and I couldn’t find you. It seemed to me that you didn’t want me to find you so I stop looking. I closed my eyes and told my self to forget you but for some reason every where I turned all I could do was think of you. Now that my heart is close and soul is dead why do you come knocking on my door, looking for me? Don’t you know that it’s too late, that the love is all gone and now hate is all I know. Leave me alone and let me be, because a life with out you is just fine with me. I will learn how to survive and live a life that’s fulfilling to me. You left me when I needed you, didn’t you see me cry, didn’t you see me beg. I feel to my knees and beg you to lessen my pain, to bring sunshine back into my life instead you walked away. No I don’t want to answer that knock on the door. I prefer to sleep.
A dream so vivid, so real but how can that be. I was walking down a path to a lake that seemed so familiar yet I know I have never been there. I was walking along side a beautiful man; everything about him was so perfect. Beautiful smooth tan skin, white glistening perfect teeth and hair long and full. He walks beside me and just smile without saying a word. As I was walking along side this beautiful being it occur to me that I didn’t know who he was but before the words came out my mouth he turn as said “of course you know me Diane”. I’m the one who knocks yet you won’t answer the door. He then told me to come and finish my walk with him. He had a lot to tell me. Immediately I was upset but he put his hand on my shoulder and immediately a peace came over me. He said “child I never left you, I was always here” you just chose to look for me elsewhere. I never left I was right here wiping your tear, helping you up from you floor and opening the window to let the sun in. The strength that you possess is the love I gave you, the courage you have is the faith in your heart and the pride is me beside you smiling at you accomplishments. You so very special as so is all my children but lately you have seen lost. I’m here to break you out of that prison and set you free to follow this path we’re walking on. Don’t ever be afraid to open that door because then you will never know what is on the other side. Don’t ever fear being alone because my child you will never be. Follow this path and at the end of it your fate will be waiting.
When I awoke in the morning the first thing I notice was the sun was shining and my heart wasn’t heavy anymore. With a smile on my face and a soul now intact, I face the world with an old time friend.
